I've been so busy lately that I barely have time to post! I have some catching up to do. I usually post when something is on my mind and when I have lots on my mind and don't have a chance to post they really start to add up!
Back in December I had a panel of blood work done to determine if I had anything that might have caused problems for Sofia. They checked for MTHFR, Factor V Leiden, PT, PTT, and Lupus. The thought was maybe I had a clotting disorder.
I was relieved when the tests all came back normal - this is very good news for any future babies. Had the results come back positive for these there would be ways of handling it with medication but it's good to know that isn't something I'll need to worry about.
So even though this was definitely GOOD news, I couldn't help but have a lump in my throat. Part of me was looking for an answer. I paused for a moment when the nurse finished telling me. I asked her again, "So the tests all came back normal?" and told her, "I still have no answers!". She was very understanding as she's been the whole time (she's the regular nurse at my OB office). She consoled me and reminded me that the tests coming back normal is indeed a good thing.
It is a blessing knowing you are healthy! It is however so hard to think, how did her heart just stop? I know God can take us home at anytime, but usually there is a cause of death. Whenever people ask me how Jonas died and I say we have no idea, and they look very confused. They ran all the tests on me as well and no problems were found. These little ones are special and I know they are just as excited as us to be reunited again one day.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you.
Thanks. When I start to feel upset that she was taken from us so soon I tell myself that He knew how special and good she was and He needed her as an angel. I'd like to think that's the case for all of the babies-including yours. Take care-
ReplyDeleteI can remember those feelings when my tests came back normal too. It's obviously nice to know you don't have these problems, but having no answer is difficult. I don't think even if we did have a medical reason for the loss that it will make any sense on this side of Heaven.
ReplyDeleteThanks Lia. You are very sweet.
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