One of my hobbies is photography and I have a part time business photographing newborns & children/families when time permits. It's been awhile since I've taken photos so when an opportunity arose to photograph a friend's baby yesterday I went for it. It felt good doing something I enjoy again. The fact that it was a baby born just days after Sofia didn't bother me. I put a few of the pics on my website blog (www.lialarson.com) as a sneak peek. I've always enjoyed babies and photographing them and just because I can't photograph Sofia doesn't mean I will stop doing something I love. I do wish I could photograph her though. She would be such a beautiful baby model.
After the photo shoot I went with my mom for manicures & pedicures. Mom was so nervous about it. She doesn't like other people touching her and she was very skeptical about doing it but I made her go with me. It was a great gift from a teacher friend of hers - two gift cards for the mani/pedi combo for us to go together. It was a nice hour of pampering and mom loved her nails. A success!! She might even go again if someone goes with her...I think we can arrange that. ;)
The rest of the day was spent running errands. Mom & Dad bought Tim & I silver pendant necklaces in memory of Sofia. Tim's is a dog tag, mine is a heart with a custom birthstone charm. Mom & I went to get mine engraved at Things Remembered. They did a great job. Tim rarely takes his off; he was so excited to receive it.
I picked up a couple picture frames for photos of Sofia. One photo is of she & I and the other is with Tim. We each wanted a photo framed next to the bed so we could see her every night before going to sleep. Here are the photos we chose:
I finally can talk about Sofia without breaking down. I can actually say, "My daughter died." and not fall to pieces. I think repetitively talking about her has helped in a huge way. I'm glad most people have been open to talking about her and asking us questions. We hope that continues. The holidays will be especially difficult emotionally.